Drive does not exist. Determination is just an illusion Hollywood made to give humans a reason to do the impossible. The truth is, no one has such drive to push one self to the limits. All we have is fear. It's what makes us move.
I have been searching for this so called "motivation," and has yet to find it. Some people use love... self satisfaction... and even material prizes. I have had all options. None of them ever pushed me to go out of my way to accomplish something.
I work out of boredom. Maybe even out of non-existent pleasure of having accomplished something. Mostly, I act because I know I should. This set of rules and standards I have for myself.. or rather, my mother's.. is what keeps me from failing. I owe it to my mom to try harder. But in the end, the motivation out of that debt is minuscule. Doing something for someone is usually easy, so why not do it? But when the favor gets in the way of my happiness, I find it hard to move.
I'd like to think that I move for others. But that's just not true. After observing how lazy I am, I realized that my actions are purely selfish. Every single thing that I have done was for myself.
I do what my mother tells me to satisfy my guilt and debt. I help my friends to fill an empty void... an emptiness inside me that might be filled after doing acts of kindness. I also do it because it's the "right" thing to do.
Think about it. If there were no standards. If people never judge. If there were no consequences, what's stopping people from become lazy motionless sloths?
